Day whatever. No biggy…

It has been longer than three weeks and yet sleep is still not coming naturally. Have taken myself all the Loperamide three days ago. It’s okay, keeping food in – Still have to eat something regularly though.

Stomach ulcer seems to be an issue. Did not think of that when starting this withdrawal. The Doc gave me 20MG caps of Omeprazole with “one each morning”. Am still taking two instead. Feels better, might drop back to one tomorrow.

Also did not think of completely going insane due to not sleeping enough. But hey, s it happens.

DRUG INDUCED PSYCHOSIS

May need a look at that one… The good old DCM-V could actually have SLEEP DEPRIVATION PSYCHOSIS and METHAMPHETAMINE PSYCHOSIS listed under the same damn thing. Call it BEING AWAKE TOO LONG just so that the layman can understand. Maybe LACK OF REST, REM SLEEP AND NUTRIENT intake would be another way of putting it?

Either way, externally the two appear pretty identical. Internally slightly different. Actually, not so much come to think of it.

When on Crystal Meth for too long my best mate would only meet me with his bouncer present. Even though it was hot he would always wear a leather trench coat. At 4pm on a hot day in Newtown or Broklyn, Wellington, NZ a guy with a long leather trench being shadowed by a large black leather wearing man stood out slightly. But he refused to meet me anywhere in private. His last words before bouncer guy tapped his shoulder (they had actually set a time limit for the meeting! WTF!) was “get off to bed mate. Stay there. Don’t do anything nuts on the way there”. This was my best mate. We dealt together for years as kids. We went to jail together. We even got infected with diseases together. We were tight all right. But, now, due to being awake for weeks on end doing deals, he got it into his head that things would explode if he didn’t pay me what was owed. And now. I may have been a bit strong on use of particular words or something. Anyway, never mind. I think we still talk to each other. Am not sure, have not seen him for five years. But yes, I did not do anything nuts on way home, and although there was a gram of crystal to be consumed I took a few halcion (about seven) and used the gram over the next few days as part of a reduction program. Good stuff mate, cheers.

When on day 12 or so of this withdrawal with no sleepers or relief of much kind from head fuck withdrawal aspects I was feeling equally psychotic. My comments of “I feel like I have been up on crystal meth for ten days” to the doctor are not without legal foundation. The effects are similar to my head anyway.

Just lucky I have taken time off from everything (life put on hold – living existence from day to day) to deal with this crap. If I was still running around, driving, seeing people left right and centre and doing all this stuff that a busy business would think of as relatively normal… Well…. I would have started biting peoples heads off, and possibly have gone very psychotic on some poor police woman’s life expectancy curriculum. It was a close run thing.

Withdrawal – Do not underestimate it.

In lockdown situations, in managed environments, sure. Fine. Do it. Give the poor withdrawing bugger some relaxing drugs and a bath to lie in for an hour a day and anyone can do it. Doing it of your own choice when your nearest dealer lives about two flats away in a council block isn’t probably the best move for everyone. Maybe don’t follow my lead there.

NZFiends five step programme to getting your slack ass off methadone;

    1. DO GET SLEEPING PILLS.
    2. DO TELL THE DRUG & ALC’ PSYCH PEOPLE WHAT YOU ARE DOING and DO COMPLAIN TO PEOPLE HIGHER UP IF THEY JUST WANT TO KEEP YOU ON THE ‘DRONE or EVEN UP YOUR SCRIPT (this happens – happened to me years ago. Twenty years ago I wanted to come down, and every time I went in they put my dose up, so started spitting it out at the chemists)…
    3. DO TRY TO GET SOME DRUGS TO HELP WITH THE INITIAL PROBLEMS –
      • NOT BEING ABLE TO SLEEP
      • LEG SHAKES and LAYING AT REST DIFFICULTIES
      • DEPRESSION, ANXIETY, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, SELF HARM
        (these should be okay, in extreme case would suggest not living alone and TELL OTHERS – Internet is okay for this even)
    4. METHADONE TAKES A LONG TIME TO COME OFF.
    5. JUMPING OFF ANYTHING OVER FIFTY IS GOING TO BE A BITCH. GO FIND SOME PEOPLE WHO ARE NOT GOING TO ADVISE YOU TO USE DRUGS AND SPEND TIME WITH THEM.
      (if nothing else available – use N.A.)

But here we are. Third week now. Doing okay. But no “mere trivial” experience either…. Pass on my regards to this guy…. Cheers mate.
http://books.google.co.nz/books?id=y6XuAAAAMAAJ&dq=romancing+opiates&source=gbs_book_other_versions&hl=en

Mr Anthony Daniels
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Theodore Dalrymple (pseudonym)
Born 11 October 1949 (age 63)
London, UK
Residence England / France
Occupation Author, journalist, doctor,psychiatrist
Notable work(s) Life at the Bottom: The Worldview That Makes the Underclass
Our Culture, What’s Left of It
Spoilt Rotten: The Toxic Cult of Sentimentality(HAHAHAHAH ;”ROMANCING OPIATES” isn’t listed… Obviously too many people laughed at him on this one?!
Influenced by ShakespeareJohnsonOrwell
Political movementHobbie ConservatismPretending he isn’t a sadomasochist gay
Religion None (atheist)

This guy really needs to read the RAT PARK cartoons and look atBruce Alexander’s work very closely.

stuartmcmillen.com>>

If anyone with any money reads this, could you please arrange for a recorded debate between the likes of this “Dalrymple”, Dr Gabor Mate and Bruce Alexander. That would be so awesome. It’d be like watching the All Blacks play a team of Canadian Moose at rugby. Canadian Moose are very nice, I have partied with them long and hard. But rugby players they ain’t……

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AND NOW I **REALLY** HAVE TO DO SOME DAMN COURT PAPERWORK AND POLICE COMPLAINT PROCEDURE WORK. IT HAS BEEN OVER A MONTH SINCE I SHOULD HAVE FILED THIS. 

But, seriously, I have not looked in my mailbox for a month either.

It is a sign of a mental defect.

Trust me.

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