Whilst I was there, babysitting her drug overdose attempts, (click here) I could not help but notice I was sitting on an overturned home stereo speaker. She has a mattress on the floor. She has no furniture. Yet she does have an ankle bracelet that does not allow her to remove herself from the premises.
Sucks to be her.
Walked around the front of the housing block just now to see if she was there. Her windows were open, so I walked up the stairs.
“HOLY SHIT, IT’S YOU“
Yes, it is me.
“Holy Crap, sorry about the other night, I was… Ueeerrrr….”
Really fucked up and using heaps of glue?
Hey, all good. You want a couch and a seat or what?
“Fucken Aye bro. Thought you were full of shit.“
Nah, I have a large three, two and one seater on the roof of my car. Been there for ten days now. Looks like it might rain, so better move them off the roof…
“Choice bro. Fucken unreal. You’re not kidding me?“
No, I will be back in a couple of minutes.
“I would come help, but I can’t leave the whare(*) aye bro”
(pointing at ankle bracelet)
Yeah, all good… See you in a minute.
The most amazing thing about this exchange was she remembered me at all. She remembered I told her had a couch for her was therefore not that amazing. Amazingly, although completely nuts and abusing every mind numbing substance known to man, she looked at me clear eyed and she honestly looked as though she remembered all the good things we had shared between the bouts of conscience killing “rest periods.”
So looked at me with respect, tolerance and knowledge.
This may have been as I treated her with respect, tolerance and shared knowledge with her that night when babyshitting her.
I did not tell her we had met before. Nor will I tell you.
This is the only trickle down effect that the worlds economists will ever find true…
Second hand furniture, car parts and clothes.
Without them, the global economy would be totally full of shit.
Found a guy to help me carry the stuff up to her flat. Would only just fit up stairs and through door. Did not tell the guy I had skinned a knuckle and cut my thumb. He was only helping me, and I was only helping someone else. Did not seem correct to complain about him pushing when he should have been pulling. Even if it did make me wince.
You see, this girl really appreciated this. She probably didn’t even appreciate the couch and chair as much as she appreciated someone doing what they said and not “being full of shit aye bro”.
She looked so fucken grateful.
You can take all your “boundaries” and “ethics” and shove them.
Upon leaving she frowned. I walked back and brushed the frown off with a stroke of a finger on her forehead.
You cannot do that as a registered counsellor or other professional employed in such a capacity without some rather dodgy charges being laid…
For me, it was worth it. Seeing the frown replaced with a smile and a warm goodbye is okay.
My boundaries are declining to tell her my name, flat number or contact details.
I am learning. Has taken a hell of a fuck up or two. But it is am learning. Even evolution.