This page is about Fiends current drug issues.
Or, more accurately, the withdrawal from the issues. One hopes.

Boring to most, interesting to but a few. Useful to self. This is a record of the process of jumping off 70mg’s of methadone really. I will look back on this with horror, I am sure. Just hope that I don’t go totally insane in the process, no matter how many psych students will look it up in future and say “of course A + B + C = *whatever horrible fate awaits me* “

Fiend is a born and bred Wellingtonian who spent a decade or two here and there. Usually within New Zealand, but always within an hours drive of a clean needle supply.

Was orginally starting to post on http://www.topix.com/forum/drug/methadone/TO34TBAHDF4QH392I/p2127

And then spent hours typing into a local NZ health based forum, only to have the company running the site delete my hours of work. This just about put me off entirely. Totally spewing. But, am back.

So, the first few posts may not make sense in a timeline kind of way.


The woman on the left side of the coat of arms...

The woman on the left side of the coat of arms of New Zealand is Zealandia, she is quite hot. You can see why the old Maori boi has a great dildo in hand. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I really like to hear any comments. Questions would be good even!


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  2. Luv the writing style – stumbled on this researching diff places to work round Welly ie A and D. I’m a nurse, good to hear experience of service users, good luck getting off M, a friend took about a year counting down, but it should be up to you to control it. Hope they come to the party and assist your plan -so studies say slow is best… doesn’t apply to everyone.


    1. Hey Mr Ford, I did just jump off >60mg a day of methadone in the end. Went quite insane after the first fortnight with no sleep. Had a bit of a problem with my daughter, lost the plot for a couple of seconds (slapped her back) and now have had all access to daughter taken away.

      Interestingly, I am not getting any counselling or psych help of any sort as I am too complicated and they are now pissing about with ADhD diagnosis. Just stupid. It’s easier to be in jail.


      1. Thats a big price to pay for w/d’s (not coping thereof)… shoulda got more support to get off from the sound of it. I think you will find whatever help u need cos you seem quite up with play. It is poss to stay off opiates if you want, have seen it done despite what clinics say.

    2. Thanks for the feedback. It is really good actually. I do this writing stuff for myself, but at the end of the day a bit of feedback really means something. I love getting mail and notes from people whom have stumbled over this crap~


    1. Thanks for stopping by. There is a few good bits hidden away amongst the last years worth of writing.


      Just don’t tell my psychiatrist I think any of this blog is good. Thanks.


  3. Methadone sucks. I jumped off 70mg a day.
    Illegally purchased from “street” sources, of course.

    And Sam McBride, addiction “specialist” in Wellington, New Zealand, is a complete knob. Turns out, after years of dealing with people all over the spectrum of addiction and those in the recovery industries white collar jobs, that a lot of others working around him are proving just as mind faltering wrong in their choice of profession.

    Sadly we, the addicted masses, suffer at their whim.

    Corporate, capitalistic whim it may be. But whim it is, nonetheless.

    Even though CAPITALISM ADDICTION could be argued as the worst problematic addiction. It’s worse for the planet. Worse for people. Worse for happiness.

    “QUALITY OF LIFE” is something that needs hammering – it’s really the be all and end all. If products or drug regimes increase quality of life for an individual, then WTF? Too bad.

    The ability to live a life is paramount. Complete abstinence is not for 95% of population long term.

    I base all this on nothing. I made it up.

    They write they rules, definitely rules to the right.

    “QUALITY OF LIFE” is a measure of recovery. Quality of life is a measure of happiness.

    Where as “How many BMW’s you own and spending two hours a day with your three kids and dog” is probably not such a relevant measure of your wellbeing. .

    I am not thick, yet struggle immensely with an answer to WHY?

    Why do they seemingly take solace in making your life, their business?

    Arguably, learning from people is a progressive societies best feature.

    Putting your head in the sand is not the same as bending over and showing them your asshole.


    Those who do not in the least find tank girl adorable will be offended.

    Punks, young people, tank girl fans will think okay.

    Spiritual advisor’s and anyone with psych’ qualifications should not think too hard and simply read the words on the page, without examining the mind behind.



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